Love Is Complicated

2010-02-01T08:17:00.000-08:00

I think and think. Actually it makes me feel that way not to say anything and keep silent but somehow if i would just keep quiet and nothing will gonna change on what i want. What if that i speak out and would it turn more worst than how i imagine ? I sit down right on my bed and think that each time i got hurt deep and deeper but why i still want to chase her back and actually the answer is very simple. I love the way too much. This is what every girls want from the guys and of course that we should love them and same goes to them. Why would only girls want the guys to love them more but not them ? That's not the way. Certain girls is like that but some are not. This world is not always fair to people around. Why i say so ? Believe me.. is there any of your friends who actually go through a good relationship more or those break up is more ? Which group of people is more ? Well , everyone want a great relationship and who don't want ? If you're a play type and you think you can play till when is it ? I just hopefully that she changed and i will willing to do everything for her and not only single things. I really hopefully that she will come back to like last time when at the first time i went out with her and the way of her look and it's gorgeous. Why at the end that happens some misunderstanding and things just got changed so fast like a strong wind blow. I can't imagine and why our relationship is getting worst each time when we go out ? I just want a simple and happy relationship and why can't i have it all ? I'm looking at the long term relationship and is not short term but why each time when i with a girl for quite some time and things will changed ? Why ? I really want to find out more on this. Sometimes i just can't bear to lose everything and each time like this. I felt hurt inside and why am i being so lonely ? Being lonely for most of the time and cause me think more and more things inside my brain running around like nobody cares. Till today that i totally want to ignore everything and i just need to relax. How can she each time did to me like this ? I'm not too good is it ? I'm not enough tolerate is it ? How the way i act and will only satisfy all your demands for a good boyfriend ? What is it ? You don't want to tell me and it's fine for me but is it an OKAY for you ? I don't think so ? Many couples will speak out to each other because they want each other to understand on each other's needs and if one of the partner did not speak out then how does the other expect that person to know ? This is totally no logic at all. But the best way for everything will still be " Express everything to get everything well "

A Brand New Year for 2010

2010-01-03T07:53:00.000-08:00

A brand new year has started and hope everything will not as bad like last time. What i really hope for this year is everything such as career , relationship , financial and family will be great. Hopefully that this year will bring more prosperity to everyone. I'm so happy that on the new year celebration at Queensbay Mall with my girlfriend , yuri and few of my friends too. At first we went to watch movie and avatar is so nice to watch but somehow i did slept for a while. I know when i told people that i slept for a moment and this sounds really silly to me. Most probably i tired so that's the reason why i fall asleep. I enjoyed the movie as well at the last part where the action part is awesome. Once the movie finished and we rush down to outside just to watch the fireworks from outside nearby the concert which organized by Queensbay Mall. When the moment reach 12am sharp and we will yelling loudly just to have a better new year and at this time , my baby came to hug me and wish me " Happy New Year ". Anyway , It's such a nice hug from her. So far i will update till here. I will start to write more again about my life and hope all the readers / blogger will continue to support me. Cheers all..

My Life

Love Is Complicated

A Brand New Year for 2010